Some punk loser rants on about life in general (not the MxPx album).

 
I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of hating people and being angry, i wish I could just go to sleep and when I woke up in the morning everything was gone. I dont like feeling like this about people. But I just feel so hurt. And I dont know how to make it go away. I just feel like the people I thought were my friends have all betrayed me. I don't know what to do... I just wish I could eraze all of my old life from my brain and start afresh. I'm sick of the lies, the twisted words. I'm sick of saying hurtful things... I just dont know what to do. Maybe I'll just take down all the mean stuff off this blog tomorrow, and get rid of all the negativty. I never wanted it to turn out like this. I dont deserve it, and I guess dan doesn't deserve it., But I feel like why should he get away with it all? I guess I'm just as bad... he wont admit it, but he did lie. I wish he would admit it, there is stuff on there thats so not true, thats the stuff that hurts the most. Maybe it's true in his mind though, which means i cant blame him, I guess. I just wish he would admit he was wrong for posting that mean stuff and take it down. I would take stuff down for him if it really upset him, and I probably will take down all of my most recent posts. But I'm just gonna go to bed now. And have weird feverish dreams from the flu I've got (they are kinda scary, but the felling of being in a daze constantly is cool) I guess wishes dont ever come true, either. So I'll have to learn to live with the lies. (which they are, I think I would know what has happened in my own life)
posted by muskawo at 5/26/2004 11:07:00 PM